The "F" Word

"Nothing tastes as good, as thin feels!"

~W.W.

...and by thin, I mean lighter. I feel lighter in every aspect of my being, and I say that because such lightness tells me that I am truly ready to fly. The Journey feels so different this time because the old me, on the last wagon, would not have been happy to say that yes, I lost .8 lbs. this week, but the new me, who I always was, and have always been striving to become... celebrates it, as opposed to thinking "I only lost..." My new work-out plan has played a large portion in my new reverence for life, but I am also remembering to walk my meditative mile, and really try to dismiss the negative feelings. Do I still get in my car and call someone a "motherfucker?" Absolutely, its a process remember! I also decided that since thoughts are things, and words originate from thoughts that I will no longer call myself "fat," "fat ass," or any other phrase involving the "f" word because I think that's been my safety net to retreat into old behaviors. Am I still gonna enjoy the sweeter side of the food spectrum? Absolutely because I am not dieting... I am re-programming my life. Also, in reading "Women Food and God," I am attempting to really make peace with my body, especially my stomach because we need to work together... Its a triumvirate--Mental, Physical, and Spiritual--that makes up our being. Looking forward, I am gearing up to get my taxes done, figure out financial aid for school, and continue working on my novel... it may have done a three-sixty, but it still needs to be born this year! The stress of bills is still here, and will always be here, but I have accepted the fact that everything that has happened to me has happened for a reason, and its not my place to question it... Instead, I am embracing it, and I know that it will all work out in the end~  

Side Note--How nice was it to go weigh-in last night, and the new lady working behind the desk say to me that she's always glad to see me come in because I am always happy... that means a lot.